I promise...

I promise to be strong and i wont crying anymore...that is my promise..ern..after a long break i think i should done sth else...2molo i will drop by kl and soon will going jb...this time really is my 1st time didnt go out at all...fre i had came back since 2 week ago..i didnt call up to tell u all i am back..i'm so soli...

time coming back...

yeah..after 1 week rest totally recover soon...now i found back myself..i really enjoying my days now...the day i left u all behind not because of u all scold me but i really not strong enuff when facing problem..hey buddy dont blame anyone yaeh..i really appreciate u all so much..be cool friend..da best in ur examination..the day the sound of soli u all really touching my heart i never expect that my parent crying too..is 1st time i saw my parent one little of tears in their eyes..i noe that this time i really so touch of the sound of soli..i never keep it in my heart...let forget bout it and become a new life to everyone..i miss and love u all...keep in touch ya...

Butterfly in my stomach..

i noe tat i will going back later but i still perplexity..i dunno y...i really cant sleep..my dad ask me dont worry so much now jus relax but i really cant make it...i had trying my best but i really cant make it....

The one I appreciate alot...

Daddy u r the one who understand me so much...I really so proud to be ur daughter...u really never scold me and ask me forget bout it and dont think about tat money anymore..u noe tat i doesnt happy at all and i really suffer..I never tell you anything but u really can feel out my feeling..Thanks you alot keep on support me and encourage me when i in trouble..and the word u told me i will always memorise it..actually u really no need pay for me let me suffer here wad for u pay for it..the answer tat u told me because "YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER" and if i am not happy he wont felf happy at all...Everytime he calling me and say...hey...let me be the superman save you la..the word he tell me really touching me..i really very uptight..and felt so soli...and 2molo i will leave i hope i had make my right way tis time and dont turn back...

The sound of insomnia

Now the time showing 6am..for me usually i sleep well in tis time.but now i cant sleep..Recently I really no idea wad am I doing...I had faced tis problem that is stress...I really felt uncomfortable at all..My heart bit faster and faster out of normal range...I scared everyone around me and I cant even sleep I had trying my best to slepp but I really cant make it...
I am getting tried and tried..Tomorrow I will leaving coz i cant stay with the stress..is very difficult for me to share with you all the feeling...suffer suffer suffer......HELP ME...

The power of solitude...

Do I need a moment alone?

A women wants to be asuperwomen from superwomen,Stevie Wonder.Life can be awfully tough.I was juggling being a student nurses and a daughter.Then it hit me.I was frustrated about not being the ideal student.
Seeing how discourage I was,a colleague offered a more.Is actually about a different phase in a girl life.My mistake was trying to be everything an idae student was all at once.I needed to accept who I was,to accept I was human.
A long time ago,I though I could be everything I wanted to be,for myself and for other.But it wasn't long before life started to wear me down.
Here's the thing.We get little reminders of how overload ourselves and we should actually listen.
Today,received a call I had knoe everything.This bother really make me so down on it and i really really no idea how to solve it.The word of "STRONG" show to me to this time I cant make it..I had trying my best to be strong but I fall.Everytime i hear the sound of friend,family,relative,tutor,and human voice it make me scared of everyone.I hope that if I'm giving opportunity I really wanna be alone just a moment.What wrong with me now?????? People around me telling me not to think about it,soon it will make me crazy.I'm getting tried and tried nowaday.Started from now I keep on telling myself not to cry anymore and it make my eye getting bruises.."ONE LITTLE OF TEAR"...I'm so soli...

Dont make me change my mind anymore

Today i was having clinical practise i was shouting scared to be injection..but no choice everyone should have a try..Argh....why tis problem happen to me right now..I have no idea to solve this bother at all..it make me so irritable recently..everyday i pray hard to god help me tis time fail my exam so that i can terminated from the course and my dad no need to pay so much..the problem was i pass my exam with flying colour and out of my expectation...i hope coming exam i fail and i noe that is impossible to me..tis is the lesson to me never hear people advice..actually i really wanna withdraw from tis course but i really dun want my dad pay any single sen for me..so not matter how suffer i have to gone through it..everytime hear something in the grapevine from senior that have to pay too if fail the exam i felt so soli and sad.i dun want let my parent noe that i'm very suffer at here..i told them i'm very enjoying and always show that i am strong..no matter how i will make myself withdraw at tis course..The main purpose i wanna withdraw from tis course b coz i cant hang out,i dont have freedom,not happy as other,and the most thing is i not strong enuff..i can cry out easily when patient pass away..I wanna be like Paris Hilton..i really envy with my sibling coz their are enjoying their life not like me now...suffer and fight for life...when you all come to tis situation you all will understand the feeling...